i lost my life now, i deactivate my fb, i dont know eand cant find whats more beautiful for now, time is painkiller. but i feel like i need thousand much to kill this much of pain. HUuurting much, im numb, i need someone. it is real hurt. i dont know wtat to do now ,, i really dont.

LIFE goes ON :)

Sometimes i wonder do people really wonder what im wondering? Sitting next the window, thinking how lifeless you're? Standing on the balcony, think about your loves one? 'you-know-who' ? Sitting on the bench, thinking who and what is the important things in your life? OR even think about some ANNOYING question making you smile silly-ly :D ? Exp : Will people feel like too lifeless already, jump down from the balcony? LOL! Thats the question asking my ownself ==!

About the VIP in my life? i guess you already got one in your mind huh?
1. NO! not him! HAHAHA! My PARENT come first. Who says you must need another half to continue a very beautiful life? Without them, my life isnt beautiful at all even how great my another half is.

2. OF course, you dont think im adorable? But they do think im. I love my FRIENDS! I love joining new friends. of course, I AM REALLY IN LOVE WITH MY OLD FRIENDS! They are always wondering and asking. 'Kei, why are you always follow what we asked?' simple as this 'BECAUSE I LOVE YOU GUYS'

3.I think this should be remain. Last time i think i would like to put 'GUITAR' if i were asking. BUT! i gonna fill this empty with something that is very beautiful.Guess what. its ICE-SKATING. i gonna learn it real soon :)

4. Actually, having dilemma still. Should i put my boy 'Fishball' on 2nd or 3rd? HHmmm, my friends may whack me when they are seeing me D: but Fishball ' YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU RIGHT?'

5. many more*
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When you're asking to fill in all these like mine? Will you still be having Insomnia? Thinking like you're Lifeless? Lonely? Many things in life worth you to go for isnt it? NOT ONLY LOVE tht cn makes us SURVIVE :) ba+ma, iloveyou both, really! <3

I CRIED TODAY. :( I thought things will be like all fine, if you treating things around you like you're still in the cradle, but its not, YOU"RE GRoWING, so i need to be mature, if the one dont wanna appologise, be the one who first appologise. This will really make you grow, dont believe? Try and see, Never let anyone to ruin you day, you said sorry, you did your role, it is up to you if you dont wanna accept or not. I DID MY ROLE AS I SAID SORRY FIRST. Things wont be so complicated if you make it this way. Im feeling good after all :D

life in college is really tough, plus im taking up a not really easy course to study but yet i can still handle this, it will not be really hard as long as u concerntrated in class (:

so they used the name, 'SHOPHOLIC' to describe me even i get to known as the major character in the book, how hilarious,im not that serious actually. but still they are cute. *many hearts* to them (: i wonder why, i can buy things without control but i can control as i don't buy anything when im doing shopping... thanks to who? =D Ha. lets remain (: we keep it confidential kay... things came things gone. people lust for what they see, and never appreciate and cherish what they having just like me. and is it really some kind of born-to-be? or it changed by some people that you're being with? ♥ p/s: i just got some of those as my FREE GIFT. LOL.

Just like the mirror from skin food. cute right? and so the travelling bag pack from L'OREAL (:
go and get one ladies.

it hurts like hell!