THE FLASH BACK

2012-02-09T01:14:00.000-08:00

i lost my life now, i deactivate my fb, i dont know eand cant find whats more beautiful for now, time is painkiller. but i feel like i need thousand much to kill this much of pain. HUuurting much, im numb, i need someone. it is real hurt. i dont know wtat to do now ,, i really dont.

2011-11-12T10:04:00.001-08:00

LIFE goes ON :)

2010-11-21T23:56:00.000-08:00

Sometimes i wonder do people really wonder what im wondering? Sitting next the window, thinking how lifeless you're? Standing on the balcony, think about your loves one? 'you-know-who' ? Sitting on the bench, thinking who and what is the important things in your life? OR even think about some ANNOYING question making you smile silly-ly :D ? Exp : Will people feel like too lifeless already, jump down from the balcony? LOL! Thats the question asking my ownself ==!

About the VIP in my life? i guess you already got one in your mind huh?
1. NO! not him! HAHAHA! My PARENT come first. Who says you must need another half to continue a very beautiful life? Without them, my life isnt beautiful at all even how great my another half is.

2. OF course, you dont think im adorable? But they do think im. I love my FRIENDS! I love joining new friends. of course, I AM REALLY IN LOVE WITH MY OLD FRIENDS! They are always wondering and asking. 'Kei, why are you always follow what we asked?' simple as this 'BECAUSE I LOVE YOU GUYS'

3.I think this should be remain. Last time i think i would like to put 'GUITAR' if i were asking. BUT! i gonna fill this empty with something that is very beautiful.Guess what. its ICE-SKATING. i gonna learn it real soon :)

4. Actually, having dilemma still. Should i put my boy 'Fishball' on 2nd or 3rd? HHmmm, my friends may whack me when they are seeing me D: but Fishball ' YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU RIGHT?'

5. many more*
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When you're asking to fill in all these like mine? Will you still be having Insomnia? Thinking like you're Lifeless? Lonely? Many things in life worth you to go for isnt it? NOT ONLY LOVE tht cn makes us SURVIVE :) ba+ma, iloveyou both, really! <3

2010-05-24T03:14:00.000-07:00

I CRIED TODAY. :( I thought things will be like all fine, if you treating things around you like you're still in the cradle, but its not, YOU"RE GRoWING, so i need to be mature, if the one dont wanna appologise, be the one who first appologise. This will really make you grow, dont believe? Try and see, Never let anyone to ruin you day, you said sorry, you did your role, it is up to you if you dont wanna accept or not. I DID MY ROLE AS I SAID SORRY FIRST. Things wont be so complicated if you make it this way. Im feeling good after all :D

2010-03-31T18:39:00.000-07:00

life in college is really tough, plus im taking up a not really easy course to study but yet i can still handle this, it will not be really hard as long as u concerntrated in class (:

2009-07-11T07:17:00.001-07:00

so they used the name, 'SHOPHOLIC' to describe me even i get to known as the major character in the book, how hilarious,im not that serious actually. but still they are cute. *many hearts* to them (: i wonder why, i can buy things without control but i can control as i don't buy anything when im doing shopping... thanks to who? =D Ha. lets remain (: we keep it confidential kay... things came things gone. people lust for what they see, and never appreciate and cherish what they having just like me. and is it really some kind of born-to-be? or it changed by some people that you're being with? ♥ p/s: i just got some of those as my FREE GIFT. LOL.

Just like the mirror from skin food. cute right? and so the travelling bag pack from L'OREAL (:
go and get one ladies.

2009-05-10T02:36:00.001-07:00

it hurts like hell!

happy birthday to me (:

2009-05-09T04:12:00.001-07:00

arent' she beautiful?She is the model of maxim magazine, my favourite one ,she got the elegant which guy cannot resist, she got the pretty and lovely attitude which girls envy at, she is my favourite person, currently taking fashion and design in ... erhhh, i forgot where alrady, and yea, shes really damn freaking hot and having a nice body figure that worth someone to die for...whooo...wth, i would die for you gorgeous, ... NIRA' CHAN (:
what she having is just showing out her....personality...----> beautiful

wish that im will grow prettier and prettier (:
he got a new gf
all i wish is he will happy wiith he another half
i miss u
sighssss....

THE FLASH BACK
you forgotten what u've said
but im still at the starting point
im still keeping what u said, and it lead me a life.
whatever life, like wth ....

im so fed up with those dense peoples X)
with densed mind, erff off.hahahahaha
see im good

THE STUPID GIRL

2009-03-31T06:31:00.000-07:00

im still thinking of him... yea...maybe. but maybe i got the new him letting me to forget about him

clueliness.
what i get from him.
i dont really understand.

I DONT UNDERSTAND

why would he do this to me.
is it.
just feeling im that fussy
or just dont wanna hurt me.

by the way
VICKY LOVES homework =D HA.

'假的'

2008-12-31T20:53:00.000-08:00

my cookie can (:
loveme till the end.

2008-12-29T02:47:00.001-08:00

i cant find a shoulder of u to cry on
but i'll still continue finding.
i wont give up on u so fast.
i wont and maybe nvr =D HA.

i loveu mua dear (:
life should be have go on like this.
hehe <3

2008-12-03T03:28:00.000-08:00

the last day before he going to aus for one week
the day- i weeping my tears in front of him. miss him. found out that i really love him to the max

the 1st day after he gone - got a heartache suddenly, was sitting in front the com, and hopefully that he can come online, but he didnt. woke up all in sudden to check my mailbox cause he will text me every night. how stupid im ]:

the 2nd day -miss him. thinking bout him whole day long ]: sitting down and write about my mood, i look so freaking haggard. He mess all my things up. awww ,i miss him so bad. i really do ]:

the 3rd day - miss him. miss the freak out guy who'd mess up my life. but i would love to let him to do this for me. wth. im foolin and wonderin something really celaka today. what a LOL. i thought. what if wilson came back then tell me. lets break up , den i ask why? he said. i have a 'gui mui' as my gf. but i know he wont la. how funny, im finding out something to do to fulfill my life without u for a weeks and keep count down for the days u coming back.geeeees. i really do think about u everyday. like today. i wonder if i would just right bside him. when he came back. the 1st thing i will do will be. rush over him, jump on him, push him on bed and feel like cuddling him all. then tackle him all over his body, and. kiss him tell him that i love him really more than i do. hahaha. crazy right? lol (:

the 4th day - miss him. i miss the face of him when hes starring at me on cam. silly.or so to say im really out of feeling of missing him. sighhhs... ]: said online but nvr not even single second. this few days i keep listening the song he sent me. like a star X 6 lol. yea. hes just like a star, higher than the sky moon even sun (: i miss him. he messed me out.sei yan tao. happy three weeks aniversary. well. why i dont have the feeling of loving animore. ]: im scared T.T

this is for u babe =P

the 5th day - miss him. omfg. he'll be came back from aus.

this is what i made today cuz wonder whats the first word he would talk to me and also the first thing he wanna tell me about what happened in aus with his family while im cooking O.o =DHA. i dont know why.
it doesnt feel good ]:what if he dont talk to me . sighssss..dont. please. hehe. but i know u wont la.
going to kay L to meet my babe. 18 days, looking forward to meet u babe =P i feel like hugging u right now.
wth. u coming back tomorrow babe.
hahahahahahah . i LOVE YOU <3

the 6th day- i misshim. the last day ]:omfg. imisshm so badly. like i dont know how to explain and describe what im thinking now. i slept 3 hours for ysterday.lol. cuz i really can sleep well becuz thinkin of him. awwww. imiss you la sei yan yong xiu shun.oh yea... hey. wheres my sweet silly =Pi miss u damn freaking lotz. =P babe i miss u so much. u shoulda know how much i lourve ice-cream right, but lemme tell u. i love u much much more than ice-cream honey. i bet u dont know. i think about ur things every day and night. sighhhhsss. now already 8.59pm where are u and when u coming bak it supposed to be today right. sighhhhssss. ]:

2008-11-30T07:13:00.000-08:00

the best of the years whoooo~

2008-11-19T06:47:00.001-08:00

me and wilson =P im really not a playgirl ]: for those bitches.

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2008-10-26T17:13:00.001-07:00

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2008-10-26T16:45:00.000-07:00

Got up on the wrong side of life today yeah
Crashed the car and I'm gonna be really late
My phone doesn't work cause it's out of range
Looks like it's just one of those kind of days
You can't kick me down I'm already on the ground
No you can't cause you couldn't catch me anyhow
Blue skies but the sun isn't coming out no
Today it's like I'm under a heavy cloud
And I feel so aliveI can't help myself, don't you realize
I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and runaway yeah
I just want to fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and runaway yeah
So So is how I'm doing if you're wondering
I'm in a fight with the world but I'm winning
Stay there come closer it's at your own risk
Yeah you know how it is life can be a bitch
But I feel so aliveI can't help myself, don't you realize
I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and runaway yeah
I just want to fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and runaway yeah
Runaway
I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and runaway yeah
I just want to fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and runaway yeah

2008-10-26T02:53:00.001-07:00

from bestest , mummy and couz (: